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Sunday, September 14, 2008
I wondered today...
Lately I started wondering if I had the right to be loved.
I've been in love a couple of times...
There is this one guy.
I dated on and off for about 5 years since 2001.
I really care about him.
I really loved him.
I spent my time writing letters and finding cute gifts for him.
I know he loved me.
We never wraped up our relationship.
Now that he's back (not with me, but in the neighborhood) it feels like if we have some sort of unfinished business.
Like if we never ended it.
We never fought.
I was sure he loved me but, for some reason, I needed to be more sure (I don't know how to explain this feeling, I guess it was just a teenager's insecurity).
I am sure he still cares about me.
But he is with someone else now.
So do I have the right to fight for him?
I saw him.
I kept my distance.
I felt.
I wished...
I wondered...
We talked.
I asked myself why did I let him go?
As we talked, I changed that question to: why did he let me go?
Why?
I guess we both did.
If felt terrible not to be able to hug him.
Not to have the right to hug him.
It felt sad not to have the right to be loved.
Will I ever fall in love and be loved again.
I wondered today.
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